Some sound advice on here…but Im guessing it will all be bouncing off you at the momment as our head is totally screwed.
Please remember that you are not the only one that this has happened to … I know of at least 2 mates that are going through similar at the momment – and whilst this is of little comfort to you, it may make you realise that you are not alone and that surpressing any feelings or emotions out of a sense of pride is an outdated prctice.
I split up from my 12 year partner ( ammicable) who was my best friend, really understood me and whose parents I regarded as my own.
We’d just renovated our dream house – I did nearly all of the work and for the final 6 months new that I had to complete the works despite knowing that our relationship was well and truly over.
Knowing that I was never going to afford the mortgage on my own ( she could) I literally walked down the driveway with a rucksack on my back and travelled/ worked around tha world….glamerous on paper but in truth my head didn’t really get sorted until I returned back to the UK in 2006/7.
I lived out of a van for a year to save enough cash for a mortgage….Im busy renovating a house and have a gorgeous girlfriend.
What Im trying to say is….don’t give up hope, focus on whats good in your life, face up to the situation and be honest with yourself.
Oh and print of a copy of Kiplings IF…it will give you strength at times when you feel sh1t.
Oh and get out and ride….!!
Good luck pal!