@rockbus I totally understand and feel very similar to you I think.
Currently sat waiting for the oldest to come in, middle one is awake, youngest asleep.
Today has been stressful on the work and estranged family front.
Hate the feeling of being trapped within the stress cycle and not being able to break it.
Running and biking are my go to exercises but if I do it in the evening when it fits the family I sleep awfully and it fuels my stress levels.
Really hard trying to manage things – sat and cried earlier! Having my 6 year old on my knee cuddling helped me.
Oh and I hate night time, feel so weird and alone even when the house is full! Think this stems from earlier life when it felt like people died in the night ?
**** hate stress and worry