Gypsum, that is exactly where I’m at. I feel I’m putting pressure on myself to ride as I have an expensive bike in the shed and should be using it. Then when I don’t I get angry with myself.
Yes I am the guy that was and still is a bit down, haven’t managed to talk to anyone and wondering where my life is going and if I’m a let down to the people around me. But upon reflection although I’m not in an amazing place I have a lot less to worry about than some people in the world so need to be happy with what I have.