Thanks all for words of wisdom.
Since a lad I saw my mother suffer in a job she hated, coming home after every day morose and bitter that has affected my family for good. I swore from a young age that I would only do a job if it make me happy – its the only way I could see myself having a 'better' life than my mother.
Until now I have largely been in such roles, however they have always been temporary ones and each one I have left wishing it was more concrete.
I applied for this job from an ad in the local paper thinking it would have been a part-time job, meaning I could continue volunteering with the Trust with a view to progressing within that. The job application snowballed and it transpired that it was a much bigger role than anticipated and when in interview I was just stunned at the offer of a 'proper' job. I was told it would be foolish to turn it down- head ruled heart.
Now I just feel trapped in this and wish that I had listened to myself instead of other thinking 'they know best'.
@Col – That very encouraging info. I tried for the Careership last year by was not successful. It would be good to ask a bit later on for some info – is that ok?