I lost my dad a couple of years back, took a few days off before he died, and went back to work almost straight after.

I didn’t want to sit around at home dwelling on it, but i was usleless at work too. Had red eyes every day for the first week and spent a lot of time hiding away in a toilet cubicle. My choice mind, my employers were great.

I wouldn’t have wanted to be trying to teach kids in that state though.

It’s taken me all this time to start to feel better about it all, so my thoughts are with you OP.