Good luck for tomorrow CG.
I’ve been lucky on the bike and haven’t suffered a bad crash, but I understand the psychological tricks that can be played on the mind.
This sounds pathetic whenever I think about it now and I know this has no relevance with cycling. Around 10 years ago, my partner and I tried oysters for the first time at a restaurant. They were cooked in a garlic butter and looked delicious. I could only manage two and started gagging – I don’t know if it was the process of swallowing the first one or the fact I chewed the second one, but I stopped there and ordered a bowl of chips.
For around 3 years, my mind associated the smell of garlic with those oysters and I couldn’t add garlic to any cooking. I used to love garlic bread & just couldn’t face it, I was also disgusted with all fish. Only time and slowly introducing myself to garlic baguettes and white fish has allowed me to get back to normal (I’m laughing at how daft this sounds as I type this, but it’s honestly true).
I threw myself into the deep end last year & tried an oyster for the first time since then – I made sure garlic wasn’t present. I know now for sure that I don’t like them. For some reason it finalised all my previous fears and everything is back to normal…. in fact, I eat a more varied range of fish now than I ever did before. But no oysters 😉
Get back on your bike as soon as you can, and just take it one step at a time…before you know it, you’ll be mentally stronger than before. 😀