So is there a youtube video you use to cheer yourself up or…
No.
I’d actually forgotten this thread, so it deserves a response. I don’t watch YouTube videos very often, I’ve got 40,000-odd music tracks on my phone, I prefer to put earphones in and lie in the dark, or low light, and just listen, but even that only helps a bit. What has helped is time – just learning to cope with the lost of my sweet and lovely partner, who really suffered from depression herself, and used alcohol to try to deal with it.
Unsuccessfully; it just made her even more depressed, and deeply unhappy, which in turn did the same to me, her mum, and her two daughters.
Her most often used phrase, when really down, was “I just don’t want to be any more”. Now, she is no longer suffering, but I’m suffering from the loss of someone who suddenly came back into my life after twenty years, and made an enormous difference to my life, and is no longer here.
I’ve managed to write this without dissolving into a sobbing mess, so time has made a difference, I couldn’t have done that four months ago.
And I don’t need alcohol to help, either.
