For **** sake. Come on world give the guy a break!
This. Very much this. Well and truly had enough is the biggest understatement ever. Still don’t know any more as to why, guess we’ll never know fully. I’m trying to keep strong, but I genuinely don’t know how much more I can handle. There’s only so much one person can take. It has been a full on horrendous 3 years. I would say 2021 can’t be much worse, but knowing my luck?
I’ll be honest, I’m not doing too good. Spent all morning in a numbing heart wrenching pain. It hurt like this when Lyanda passed away and I’m right back there again. On top of all the other crap we’ve been through this year, and covid on top, wasn’t expecting to end the year like this.
Then my birthday, daughter’s 8th birthday Xmas day, Xmas itself, it’s going to be an extremely tough week with this shadowing it all. Don’t know how I’m going to get through it all, already feel myself struggling. Still too early to know when the funeral will be. Who can attend? How many? Funeral costs. Aaarrgghhh! Haven’t been able to tell the other kids yet, not sure how they’d take it being this close to Xmas and emotionally struggling themselves. Might have to wait to tell them. FML! 😭