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  • hora

    Hope you are ok dude 🙂

    Premier Icon mintimperial

    Hi all. I just met with Chris for a coffee, and he has asked me to post a quick update for him. The treatment has hit him hard and he’s very tired all the time, which is why he’s not been posting on here. He is bearing up brilliantly considering everything, and we had a lovely long chat about all sorts. He asked me to say thanks for all the kind messages of support he has received from you lot, both on here and privately. I’m sure he’ll be along to update you all with more details in person as soon as he gets the time and the energy to do so.


    Like. 😀

    Premier Icon Bunnyhop

    Thanks mintimperial.

    I’ve been in touch with Chris too and echo the above.
    He’s had to endure some uncomfortable treatment, which would have had most people on their knees, however with Chris he has a certain personality to laugh it off as though it were nothing 🙂

    Premier Icon wwaswas

    Glad to hear he’s hanging in there and I hope that the treatment he’s receiving is working.


    Chin up!



    Hi folks,
    Hope you’re all fine and well?
    It’s taken me a while to get my head in anyway straight enough to type this but, here goes, an update…

    Firstly, thanks again to everyone for words of support etc. especially those who have contacted me directly – sorry I did not reply directly, my mind has mostly been anywhere but foreword…

    Logically there is much more to this, but, having played this post over in my mind so many times, I figure simple is best…
    Just before Easter we made the decision that there will be no more ‘life extending’ treatment for my cancer.
    Since the original diagnosis we have always been well aware that the treatment available would likely have limited success. The scans etc that came after the 1st batch of chemo confirmed that the drugs were not working. Indeed, the cancer appeared to be spreading. At this point our oncologist advised that, locally, they could think of no further option they could offer but they set about speaking to other specialist centres. Word came back of another option for chemo but, again, it was stressed that positive results were not to be expected, still, you have to give these things a go.
    Following the first dose of this second treatment my immunity levels hit rock bottom and I ended up in hospital. Fortunately, what was initially thoughts to be a new, large, aggressive, tumour turned out to be a bad infection, the legacy of which turns out to be a blood clot on my, until now ‘good’ right lung. Better the clot than the tumour…
    So, as the chemo was leaving me feeling rubbish and wide open to further infection etc it was time to revisit a conversation Sharon and I had had before. Quite simply ‘quality or quantity’. Quality was kind of a known position – appetite better, not as tired, generally feeling so much better in myself. Quantity – bottom line is, no one knows how long I’m likely stick around, chemo or not.
    Decision made, we spoke with our oncologist. He agreed with us.
    So, there you have it.
    Big decision made but, I’ve not been this happy for a good while. I get scared I every day. I’m happy every day…
    Life is as good as it can get.
    The support of a truly amazing wife, family and friends humbles me every day.
    As for the NHS, Macmillan, Kirkwood hospice etc etc I do not know where to start….



    Shit. Not much else I can say about that one, pretty much sums it up.

    (Edit: best wishes obviously to you and your wife, but that just sounds a bit weak when hearing of your decision.)

    Premier Icon richmars

    Not much to say, but you’ve made a decision, and who can say that isn’t right?
    Thinking of you and your family.


    Again, I find myself feeling very humbled by your courage. I admire and respect your decision, as your wife and family do too.

    Wishing you love and continuing happiness.

    Premier Icon muddydwarf

    None of us can say how we would deal with such a situation til we were faced with it, you’ve made a decision that’s right for you and your family – which is all that truly matters.
    Trying to find something inspirational to say that isn’t trite, the truth is i can’t. Its all been said before & by far more erudite people than myself.
    Hope the sun shines on you and your family for as long as it can.

    Premier Icon Capt. Kronos

    It is a hard, and very brave, decision to take. I wouldn’t like to be in your shoes, but having watched my Mum loose the fight with all the medical treatment being thrown at things earlier this year I think it is very probably the right decision taken for entirely the right reasons.

    Quality of life is paramount, and with limited chance of any kind of success from a pretty debilitating process you are as well enjoying what time you have left to the absolute best of your abilities… and leave everyone with good memories when the time comes.

    So sorry for you that I really don’t have the words – but my thoughts are and shall remain with you and your family.

    We’ve had reason to think through a similar choice here too and for what it’s worth I think you’ve probably made a good decision and I wish you the best of health for longest possible time.

    Premier Icon ton

    Chris, i feel so so sorry for you mate. such a brave choice to have to make.
    keep positive mate, and all the luck in the world to you and you family.

    Premier Icon jamj1974

    Hi, I’m both sorry to hear you have had to make this decision but also very much admire your decision and choosing to be open about it. I hope you are able to make the most of each day with the people you love.

    Take care,



    the bravest of us take hold of our own destiny. I hope this doesn’t sound trite and it is meant with great respect. all the best for you and your family from the vaders

    Premier Icon tenfoot

    All the very best to you. A very hard decision.

    Good luck to you.

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    That’s a brave decision you’ve had to make, MM – I can see why making it has taken a weight off already.

    Is there anything “we” (I can only really speak for myself, of course, and I live a while away from you, but still…) might be able to do to help ? Anything you need, or wish you could do but don’t have the assistance to make it possible ?

    All the best to you and those who love you. Make some (more) great memories !

    Premier Icon muggomagic

    I don’t think I could ever imagine the strength it must’ve taken to come to that decision. I have the ultimate respect for you and wish you and your’s the very best.

    Premier Icon leffeboy

    There really isn’t much that can be said but well done for taking charge of the bits you can. I hope you are able to continue making the most of things as long and longer than you could possibly imagine.


    I think you’ve just slipped into my New Bravest Family slot, Chris, created specially for you.

    Thoughts and prayers are with ya big fella- xx

    Premier Icon porter_jamie

    all the best, thoughts with you.

    Premier Icon big_scot_nanny

    Aye, all the best from us as well. Hope you have many wonderful family experiences from now on.



    We’ll see you soon, hopefully.


    Anyone else find themselves swallowing saliva and taking a deep breath before they read that last update?

    *sigh* Damn. I wish there was more I could do in situations like these. Maybe STWers could organise a yearly ride somewhere central that would raise funds for charity.

    All the best Chris. I’m going through a pretty shitty time myself at the moment but you and a person at work make me realise that I haven’t got it that bad. Stay strong buddy.

    EDIT: I also echo scaredypants post about anything we as a collective can do. In the fire service when one of our guys got hit with the bad news we done a whip round (bit more than a whip round) and got some £4K to pay for him and his wife to have a holiday of a lifetime which they’d always wanted. Felt great to be a part of that.

    Just ask!


    bradley – Member
    Anyone else find themselves swallowing saliva and taking a deep breath before they read that last update?

    Yep, and some deep breaths and whatnot afterwards too.


    This is the first time I’ve seen this thread and it hits a chord with me having lost my father some years ago to the big C.

    I sincerely hope you manage to keep your standard of life as high as possible for as long as possible (that’s what we all want really), if there is anything that can be done to help/take mind off then I’m sure like many others will gladly lend an ear (or eyes to read),

    As to a bit of find raising what about a STW pootle where each rider donates a bit. No doubt quote a few would donate a bit of cash in exchange for a ride and possibly some cake 🙂

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    Thinking of you and your family mate, and the good rides I’ve been on with you.

    Wishing you all the best Chris. Take care mate.

    Premier Icon Bunnyhop

    Chris – you have made the hardest decision of your life. That takes incredible courage.
    Everyone who knows you (and some who don’t) is thinking of you and as scardypants says above, if there is anything you need or we can do, just ask.

    J. xx

    Premier Icon Mal-ec

    Sounds like a sensible decision that was well made.

    Had 2 mates go through a similar thing recently. They and their families all felt it was the right decision.

    Stuff they found helpful was getting some advance planning done through Macmillan and agreed with GP, Making sure partners e.t.c and you have access to some form of counselling, which they may not want , but having someone they can off load to can help. Going out + doing stuff. Spending time with loved ones. Laughing, lots. Doing some meditation / relaxation. Doing whatever makes you feel good, is good for you.
    No-one can predict what will happen or when, so living each day as fully as possible, what ever that means, is the call.


    Chris, I don’t know you but have followed your thread. Your post is upsetting and inspiring and I wish you and your family as many happy times together as possible.

    My wife’s uncle went down the treatment route and spent his last months in chemo hell (the treatment got him in the end) so I think you have made the right choice.

    good luck mate.

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    Never met you Chris but I send you all the best wishes. I watched my Dad go through a similar thing and I always said I would make the same decision as you (who knows if I would ever be brave enough to actually do it).

    I know you will truly enjoy the time you have with you loved ones and make this time count.

    All the best, stay strong.

    Matey, your fortitude is inspirational. My thoughts are with you.


    That must have been an incredibly tough decision to make.


    Hello old friend,

    I read your post earlier today, and it has taken me until now to come up with something in response. For those that don’t know, Chris was the photographer at my wedding in October 2009; six weeks after I had a tumour cut out of my heart, and four days before we found out that the cancer had metastasised to my bones. Folk might already know that he was the photographer, but what they won’t know is that he offered his services free of charge, refusing payment and travelling hundreds of miles to record our special day.

    You were remarkable then, and you are remarkable now. Truth be told, your decision reflects everything I’ve ever felt about you; compassion, kindness and great strength. I feel very proud that you offered a hand of friendship to me, and am sure that I wouldn’t be here without you and others like you. So thank you, and if possible I’d like to pop up at some point and buy you the cup of tea I’ve always promised you…

    Best wishes,



    Big decision made but, I’ve not been this happy for a good while.

    You have taken control. I guess for months things have been very much out of your control but now you’ve regained control, which must be a very positive thing.

    None of us know the day or the hour but for you Chris it takes a special kind of courage. Do enjoy the here and now, the moment.

    “That nowness becomes so vivid to me now, that in a perverse sort of way, I’m almost serene, I can celebrate life. Below my window, for example, the blossom is out in full. It’s a plum tree. It looks like apple blossom, but it’s white. And instead of saying, ‘Oh, that’s nice blossom, looking at it through the window when I’m writing, it is the whitest, frothiest, blossomiest blossom that there ever could be.

    Things are both more trivial than they ever were, and the difference between the trivial and the important doesn’t seem to matter — but the nowness of everything is absolutely wondrous.

    And if people could see that — there’s no way of telling you, you have to experience it — the glory of it, if you like, the comfort of it, the reassurance. . . . Not that I’m interested in reassuring people, you know. The fact is that if you see the present tense, boy, do you see it, and boy, can you celebrate it!”

    Dennis Potter

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    My uncle made the same decision as yourself with his cancer about 3.5 years ago, sadly he passed shortly after the closing ceremony to the Olympics. I had the upmost respect for his decision on the matter as I do you even though I have never met you. Best of luck and enjoy living each day.


    Chris, I’ve never met you, but i didn’t feel I could read this thread without posting something. Your decision must have taken some incredible bravery. It certainly puts my day into perspective!

    I wish you and your family all the best.

    Premier Icon kennyp

    I’ve been staring at this thread for about 20 minutes now, reading all the comments and thinking about someone I’ve never met. Tried to find the right words to type but struggling to put into words what I’m sure many of us are thinking. I’ll settle for a simple ” hang on in there” but I’m sure you’ll realise there’s a lot behind those four little words.

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