+1 – the impression I get from 11 is that it’s an avoidance thing – people keep themselves busy to avoid thinking. For me doing chores just results in me thinking, hence I have other ways to “keep myself busy”, like posting on here.
I sometimes wish I wasn’t so high functioning – it’s hard work putting on the act all the time. But not only that, I wonder if it would be easier if people knew without me having to tell them. I had wondered how obvious it was and whether people knew anyway, but I suspect the answer is that the only person who knows in RL is the one person I’ve told – given his reaction of genuine surprise when I told him. The thing is, as I said to him, I’m mostly symptom free even inside when I’m with people I consider to be friends, which makes it even harder mentioning it! Given I’ve not found drugs help and counselling at best has just helped me to cope better, I wonder if there’s a clue there – I wish I could bottle that feeling.