Things do seem unfair, at times, mate. But you’ve shown, speshly with your 2 year-old, that you can cope, and that you have the strength to get through.
People like you are the toughest, bravest souls our society has. Without people like you, we’d be fecked. Most of us simply don’t have the mental strength it takes, to be able to deal with crises the way you do.
And expressing this emotion is, in itself, a pretty tough and brave thing to do. Shows you’ve got the character to get through things.
Hope everything goes ok for your family, and that things can get a bit easier from now on; you’ve had a bloody hard time, by the sounds of things.
Take a bit of time out, maybe; talk to mates, chill out on your own, take a rest. Soon as, you’ll be back on form again!