I can sympathise ton, it’s a shit element of ageing that you only seem to socialise with certain members of your younger years through death, I’m only 41 but there’s 4 folk from our old clubbing/socialising crowd that have died this year.
2 from brain tumours that started recently as mild headaches but they rapidly went downhill, one from a heart attack out of the blue despite being pretty damn fit all his life, and one from a virulent rare cancer in a matter of weeks from diagnoses to us throwing dirt on a wicker coffin.
A few years ago i made a promise to only do stuff i wanted to do and if i decided to do something then i’d do it and **** the consequence as life is too short……….i hold that even more true now.
Lost 4 friends to heroin od a few years ago but to be honest it was always a bonus when you met up wi them and found out they were still alive and smiling as i knew it would get them in the end, the recent spate of pointless deaths has left me more resolute to say ****-it to everything and just enjoy what i have.