I'm 36 now, and I've not spoken to my father since January 1st 2000.........I guess what I'm trying to say, is sometimes fathers aren't worth knowing, they're just a waste of space.
You should contact him. It's almost ten years now, and although you can't be sure how things will turn out, one thing that you can be sure of, is that it is extremely unlikely that things will be as they were ten years ago.
I'm not saying that you should contact him as an act of charity for his sake, but for your sake. Time to bury the anger and resentment, there's enough shit in life without burdening yourself with unnecessary extra luggage.
10 years is a very long time to be angry with someone, and you are clearly still very angry. It is now a pointless emotion which serves no further purpose, and it will continue to weigh you down providing an obstacle to your own happiness and contentment.
You will discover how liberating forgiveness can be for you as you purge your mind of anger and resentment, allowing you to concentrate on the real crap which life invariably throws at us, and which really matters.
As I said, you can't exactly be sure how things will turn out, but after ten years things will be different, especially if you are determined that they should stay different. And even if he is still angry with you after all these years, it will still have been worthwhile. Because if you manage to forgive you will be free of your anger, despite him being still trapped in his.
You, and you alone, are responsible for your own anger, feelings, and emotions - not him.
Nor anyone else for that matter. And yes, I've been there.
imho
