Hello all, although I am not a regular or known here I just need to get my feelings down anonymously.
My son was born on Tuesday, Labour was complicated, but my partner was awesome and I was so proud of her. Wednesday night comes around and we haven't slept really since Monday.
He starts really screaming and his breathing had changed, so we took him to A and E. His blood sugar wasn't even reading. On the way to the paediatric ward he became unresponsive, went limp and was barely breathing. I had to run to the ward clutching my first baby thinking he was going to die.
I am now sat next to his incubator while he sleeps. My wonderful lady is sleeping a much needed sleep.
I have kept up a brave face for her and family, but I feel broken inside. Just want my boy to get better and feel utterly powerless. I've known him for four short days and I feel a love I didn't think it was possible to experience.
Sorry for ranting here, but I just need to get these feelings out.