I will add this with a caveat as many of you will think I have been a total <insert expletive> and hate for what I have done and not understand. Which I fully understand.
So here goes:
My BF left me in August siting we wanted diff things i.e. he wanted to live abroad and I didn't. Which was true. But underlying that was the fact the relationship hadn't been amazing for the last two years. But it ended amicably, Mainly as he didn't want it to and nor did I/
However for the last few years after ignoring earlier in life and then meeting him (whom I did genuinely fall in love with) I had been battling with the fact that I was gay. This had all occurred after falling for my female best friend and ended up sleeping with her. Which I am more than aware not matter of sex of person is downright cheating. But unfortunately beyond the just ooo I fancy a bit of different sex was linked to desires surrounding my sexuality. But you may then ask why the two years. Well initial euphoria was yes I am a lesbian. but then it was like ugh no I still love this guy. I can't decide on being gay at such a late age. I've just been a massive whatever and cheated on him.
Anyway time went by not quite like a fairy story and I was just coming round to admit to myself who I was really and trying to find a way to end the relationship when he left regardless.
So this is the background the issue I have is the ex has asked me to leave the joint property we own and pay for so he can declutter and decorate so it can be put on the market and easier to sell vacant. Obviously we can't keep owning the house but am feeling a bit shattered about having to move out by the end of the month. Should I agree to this, is it reasonable? My reaction initially was no but is that just me? Aaarrgh I have no idea. And I will not given current circumstances be able to buy out and take the mortgage on.