I know the feeling – I had a hellish few years loosing my son, getting divorced, Mum had cancer which went into remission then came back to take her… then my gran a couple of months later. Leaves you utterly broken (this was over about 5 years but seems much more compressed).
I also lost my old pooch a few weeks back.
But… life goes on, and there is always someone having a worse time somewhere. Last year I remarried, I have 3 lovely kids and a new dog 😉 I am sitting in a living room on a Scottish island having a nice holiday and making pipedreams about moving here and starting a new business and earning a pittance in the process but having a wonderful time doing so! It may happen… at some stage….