Over the past year or more I've become a bitter and jealous person - and I don't want to be! But I can't seem to stop myself.
I get jealous about our friends as they are all a lot better off than ourselves. The talk is always about weeks away in Indian, Florida, France, Skiing etc. - we had 6 days in a tent in Norfolk and a week with the mother-in-law! We excuse ourselves from social events due to the expense. They are all nice people, but my jealousy stops me conversing as a feel I have little to contribute.
I get angry and annoyed with family members and I get angry with customers. Not to their faces, but in my head, which then makes me more irritated because I know there's no reason to be angry in most cases. The times when I should say something I don't as I don't want the confrontation.
I seem to be in constant state of tension! I create arguments in my head with people (but would never follow them through).
The thing is I know in reality we do alright as a family (wife, daughter and myself) and most people would strive for our life. We both work, live in a nice area, we can pay the bills and spend a little, we have some goods times and we have our health.
So has anyone any tips or advice to stop me feeling so tense and aggressive as I feel it's getting out of hand.