ok, i look like I'm new around here, but I'm really not.....suppose it's the old fashioned "don't admit anything" in me
So over the past few nights I've been feeling worse than I usual. Waves of anxiety and guilt. Nothing to really feel guilty about, I haven't done anything out of the ordinary. Just an overwhelming feeling of guilt.
I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety about 10 years ago, never really went away, used to take medication but stopped that about 2 and a half years ago. Never felt the need to go back on them. Gave up smoking about 3 months ago, that wasn't helping anyone, don't drink much at all (a couple of glasses of wine of a weekend) no drugs or anything like that. Try to eat ok and exercise less than I probably should.
Thing is I feel guilty over everything I do or worse, have no control over. I put everyone else's feelings first and don't do or buy things based on how other people might feel. It's got to the point where I can't focus on anything and procrastinate constantly or take an interest in something for about an hour before talking myself out of it and moving on to something else wacky and hair-brained.
I tried a counsellor a couple of years back but spent more time telling them the issue and how I knew how to fix it that they kind of gave up and let me ramble.
I'm probably not making any sense, but I have seen threads on here before and there seems to be a lot of good advice kicking around. I plan a ride tomorrow to try and clear my head a bit, but at the moment it all feels like I'm slipping back down a slope.